Kayden Kross Blog
todays groundbreaking update
I woke up at 7:30am because a rabbit landed on my head. You'd
think after a year of this crap I'd have gotten used to it, but between the
claws and the jerky movements it's still a shock every time. I've been locking
Sammy up at night lately, specifically because he disturbs my sleep, but I
couldn't catch him last night and I was too tired to pursue it beyond calling
his name out and making kissy noises. Yes, my rabbit does occasionally come
Things that make me wake up in a panic throw off my whole
day. He landed. Claws and hair went everywhere. I sat up screaming and trying
to untangle myself from the mess of sheets I was wrapped in. I tripped over
what was still around my ankles as my feet hit the floor. The rest of my body
followed. From my new vantage point flat on the ground I could see Sammy
running away so fast his tail end was spinning out behind him on the hardwood.
I haven't seen him since. At some level it's ironic that between the two of us
he was more traumatized by the incident.
I was up so I figured I might as well get a head start on
studying for the midterm, if you want to call it a head start. The midterm was
at 3:30 pm. I ordered the second textbook over the weekend. I hadn't even
opened the package yet. It's a dense class but I'm familiar enough with the
professor by now that I know what to expect. He's a hardcore dependency
theorist, meaning he is of the opinion that developed countries (DCs) gained
power and wealth at the expense of the lesser developed countries (LDCs), first
through colonialism (direct siphoning off of resources and labor power from
periphery to core countries) and now through neocolonialism (indirect siphoning
from LDCs to DCs by setting up puppet govts. getting in bed with compradores,
destabilizing regions, unfair trade policies etc.). We've put third world
countries into a cycle of dependency that they cannot break free of. Hence the
name "Dependency Theory".
Dependency Theory wasn't the only thing I needed to know
though. I had to know realists (capitalists), idealists (liberals and
communists), environmentalists, and for some reason, feminists. I skipped over
the feminist bit. It drives me crazy on multiple levels for multiple reasons.
I'm not going to get completely into it but this is an international political
economy class. I don't like wage gaps and religions that cut off clits as a
rite of passage but it feels more like a symptom of a larger problem than a
theory on how wealth and power are distributed between states (unequally).
I had to know the rise and decline of capitalism from Oct.
1492 through the present and significant events such as the treaty of
Westphalia and on and on--basically those things that made sovereign states what
they are today and the driving forces that puncture borders to create new
markets and are slowly eroding that sovereignty, i.e. McDonalds, Halliburton,
and the IMF. Then there are the multitudes of theories within the theories, and
to be honest, I just read the chapter summaries for 1-5 because it got tedious
and there was a reason it was scheduled to be read over the course of 8 weeks
and not 4 hours. Lesson learned.
The test: I've never answered "E: all of the above" so many
times in my life. But it wasn't just a guessing game or a strange distribution
of eeny meenie miny moe. I really had a grip on the material. I got to the T/F
section. I answered T for 28 out of 30 of the questions. I felt toyed with. I
turned in the test and went horseback riding instead of sticking around for the
lecture. That'll fix anything, at least until the final when I realize that the
notes I just missed out on were a large chunk of the test material.
And now I'm back home, catching up on an entire semester's
worth of homework for the other class, but not really, because I haven't started
yet. I spent some time on Facebook, where I ran into a long lost cousin. I
couldn't figure out why her entire page was in Spanish (she's a redhead from suburban
America for christsakes), then I remembered that the last time I saw her was at
her wedding, where she was marrying some doctor from South America, and it all
came rushing together. I looked up other family members. My mom is still mad
that I won't let her write on my wall. She's been grounded since she started
leaving "love, mommy" notes last year. I keep trying to start this homework but
once I really look at the assignments I question my enrollment in the class in
the first place. I think from now on I'll just audit everything.
Maybe I'll go try to find my rabbit instead.